Took a change to see me, now that you believe me its like I’m dreaming sweetly when you’re here beside me and I have never felt so like I found which way to go, when you touch me gently I remember how you know
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And the sun shines rings around your smile and I’m here laughing like a child; There’s just one place love could start, with the pieces of my heart
Changed my stars to find you, I lost the mask and broke through, no more secrets from you, I would lose to love you and I have never felt so like a man that’s been set free I can spread my arms now you can place your trust in me
Chorus:
And the sun shines rings around your smile and I’m here laughing like a child; There’s just one place love could start with the pieces of my heart
I can’t stand to lose you, to break but never get through and I can only love you if I use all the pieces of my heart
Chorus:
And the sun shines rings around your smile and I’m here laughing like a child; There’s just one place love could start with the pieces of my heart

Touch my soul and come fly with me. Touch my lips gently with your love and let my thirst be released. Break these chains off my heart and bring the wishes I desire. For only one can show me the reality of blissful surrender. Take and glisten my skin with the heated touches. Softly with hearts dreams. Don’t stop the want of embers stroked. Make surrender of the sweetest smile devour the longing aches of this heart. Touches of the inner-core. Pleasures un-measured. Moans of escape as the bodies tremble, breaths quicken. Taste the sweetness of love given. Hold the heart which desires this unquenched heat. For only you can calm this. A smile placed by your own heart laid upon these lips. Oh, sweet wish for my Smile does this Heart wish.©

She walked across the floor to the bay window of the hotel room.The sheer white curtains blocked what she wanted to see. One swooping motion with her hand and the pink,red and orange hue of the sunrise came over the infinity pool which sparkled as diamonds as the wind gently danced whisperingly over the water. Her wait was nearly complete. She closed her eyes and bit her lower lip trying to steady herself. Her flight had gotten in first. She was delighted she had a few minutes to compose her breath.

This was along awaited trip for her. Neither of them had ever thought this encounter would materialize. So many hours of them both dreaming,wishing wanting paradise. She had memorized his voice from years of hearing it whispering into her dreams. “I’ll be with you soon” it said. What would she say? How would she react? She hadn’t even considered any if it. For when the opportunity arose for this first encounter. She took the chance of faith to create a dreamscape. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath in. As she let it out it became abundantly clear,her whole being was shaking. She told herself to get control.However she knew it was a futile attempt to try,for all she’d ever known was a spark of ember. Here she was on the cusp of this dream.

Behind her she heard the handle of the door. Her heart skipped a beat as she stood fixated on the sunrise. Being terrified and feeling absolute overwhelming joy at the same time was bending her emotions which were flying every which way. She became conscious of his footsteps and closeness to her they were getting. She felt him as the back of his fingers traced over the nape of her neck onto her bare shoulder which was showing thanks to the light red dress she had worn. She didn’t even feel that she had lost her breath. Her head tilted towards his hand. Not one word had been spoken and that small ember had become a roaring inferno. Her body trembling wanting his touch to finally surrender. To expiriance it’s passion, it’s desire, its uncontrolled animalistic hunger. The back of his hands traced her outline slowly and with purpose. Still not one word spoken. For between them, nothing needed to be said. His breath was intoxicating on the nape of her neck, buckling her knees. She prayed that she could with stand the weakness and not fall. He drapped his left arm and hand across her waist to help secure her as he pulled her closer to him. She submitted to his want. She lifted her head to meet the sunrise as she felt his structure. As she opened her eyes. The diamonds which were whisping thru the water were now in her eyes. Dancing to the sparkling of the beat of her heart. She closed her ocean blue eyes

As quick as a snap of a finger. She opened them again to find herself alone in her apartment. She gathered herself sitting on the side of the bed. The aroma of fresh coffee lingered on the air. As she got herself a cup and walked over to her sheer curtains and whipped them open she realized her eyes were dancing and as she struggled to understand , she vowed eternally that this dream was one dream that reality would dictate that she would die for.©

What is Love?

Love is defined as a strong affection for someone. A connection which is so deep mere words cannot define. The word Love as it sits isn’t a surface word. More it is about the deepness you can feel. It is something which is physical. It can affect every facet of your life.

Over the course of my life,I’ve seen the use of this word. Mostly casually to the point where it lost it’s significant meaning. There are so many forms of Love. That’s very true,but there’s only one heart where it comes from. I mean take a moment and really think about it. When someone Loves you. You can litterally feel their heart pulse. It’s warm and you can sense the deepness from where it resides. A pure heart which Loves is a treasure to hold. I realize this world doesn’t offer the purity of Love as something other then surface garbage,but there are thoes of us who still belive in the sanctuary of Love and the meaning it holds

I’ve kept my heart locked up thru my entire life because I never felt I was worthy for one and because when I was told someone loved me it came with pain attatched. I’d never felt Love. To me Love had a connection. A soul connection. Something which no one could break.I never ever thought for a moment that I would receive it. Now,there are some who will ask me.. If you have never expirianced Love how could you write so completely about it. Well, that’s simple and I can answer it for you.

The Love I write about comes from waiting my whole life with a vision of what I truly believe Love to be. From romance,to lust,to unadulterated passion. It’s all what has been in my minds eye. With one exception… I have litterally felt my soul fly once. And I never want it chained again. My whole life I was expected to show Love but not receive it. I wasn’t given any options. So when my soul flew once..omg I never wanted to come down. I realized that for me. I ended up Loving so fiercely because I knew what it meant to not be loved. Oh, don’t get me wrong I’ve heard thoes words “I Love you” before but they came with attachments. I myself was expected to say it back. Over time it was something which I didn’t care for even tho I longed for it.

When my soul took flight. It was different. It was as if chains which I’d felt my whole life were gone. I could breathe again. Even tho I was absolutely terrified,I had to try. I dug really deep inside me and found the courage to show myself it was ok. I never expected anything nor asked for anything because in that circumstance it wasn’t my place. I just knew how I felt and didn’t want it to end. I came to realize that it was my very first Love.I came to the conclusion that everything I’d written about Love was right. It meant my soul had a key and it was my choice to give it to whomever I wished,like my heart.

So that’s what Love is to me. It’s a deep connection that knows no bounds. Something I will never regret,despite distance,or circumstance. If I’ve learned anything these past several weeks. Tell the ones you Love that you Love them. Time is so precious and never guaranteed. Let the ones you care for know. Show them. For God sakes it takes mere moments to do and the affects can be life long. For to me there is nothing sadder than letting Love die.©💗

P.s. ya I’m a hopeless romantic 💗

A Sonet For A Friend

His stance is tall despite what people say. He holds values and morals that cannot be denied. His laughter is contagious and he’ll lose his breath at the one trying to be a man now. YouTube champion in more ways then one. He’ll stand up for that which is wrong,and will fight you if he knows you’ve done wrong. He’s taken hits but has stood tall despite what people do. For him there’s no going sidways. I met him first on the Morning Kumite. Blood sports champion he truly is. Little bois try to take him on,but he is smarter then they’ll ever know. He has reigned supreme against all comers.

So today on his special day I wanted to honor this friend. To say just how much of a champion I truly think he is . Happy Birthday Tonkasaw you deserve the best the world has to offer.©

#TonkaWon 😁©

Let me tell you of my oldest and dearest friend.

He’s a swave man with a heart of gold. A one of a kind rebel. That even the pirates would be jealous of. He runs a pirate radio. He runs it with his swashbuckling loyal co-host Grumblesnorts . There’s not a band he wouldn’t play. He battles the powers that be who try to take him down. He only wants to entertain. He supports others with that heart of gold just the same. For He truly gives a dam. And never takes credit for himself. He has only two rules he is strict by. That’s not to shit on his rug. And to be a good dude. So if you are in need of some good music with company to match. Stride over to his channel and sit a spell with TheKillingJoke. Take in what is known as WJOKE.©

https://www.youtube.com/c/TheKillingJokeha

💗p.s. love ya Joke….Nami

Oooooo..oooooo ….oooooo….oooooo

If I had a chance for three wishes. I’d only need one. It’d be a simple wish, taken thru time. It’d be something which could be granted. For it could not be denied. It would write a fairytale for my heart. For my heart.

Western winds. Western Winds. Carry my heart away from this pain which surrounds it every day. Lay me down so ever softly on the banks of a distant shore. For my one and only wish do I pray for my heart. For my heart.

Take and guide his sails without storms to land on this long distant shore. Let him seek the longing of his own true heart. To give the chance to love me once more. For my heart.

Western winds. Western winds. Carry my heart away, from this pain which surrounds it every day. Lay me down so ever softly on the banks of a distant shore. For my one and only wish do I pray for my heart. For my heart.

Western winds. Western winds. Carry my heart away, from this pain which surrounds it every day. Lay me down so ever softly on the banks of a distant shore. For my one and only wish do I pray for my heart. For my heart.

Oooo..ooooo….. For my only heart©

Sad Romance (violin version)

Ive seen alot of people feeling broken lately and I felt compelled to share my thoughts.

Things happen in our lives which create pain and making us feel broken. Whatever it is from a broken spirit to heart to broken value of ourselves. We tend to crawl into a corner and shut ourselves in and away from others and everything. It’s during these times that there are those who will try and prey on what they believe is our vunerbility because they see us as weak. They’ll try and convince you that you need to break your entire foundation of what makes you,who you are to create change. But what if I were to tell you that isn’t necessary to do.

The pieces which are broken are still part of you. And it’s hard to try and heal from feeling broken. I believe that Beauty lies in the whole piece which includes the broken part. Let me explain.

The Japanese are notorious for never throwing away anything which can be fixed. Especially delicate pieces. It’s called Kintsugi. The art of fixing broken pottery. They take lacquer with gold to repairs the piece. It not only strengthens it. But enhances it’s existing beauty. Each broken part of the piece signifies the trials and pain it goes thru on its journey.

Well, I believe we can use the same theory in our lives. We get so focused on us feeling so inadequate and not worthy when we feel broken,that we miss our own beauty. We don’t have to start over. We just have to take the broken parts and add Love,Compassion, kindness, empathy to ourselves. We tend to give those things to others but for some reason we tend to be very sparing with those things when it concerns us. You know the old adage ” What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger”? Well, it’s true. Once you apply self love,that part of the areas which were broken actually bring strength to the rest of our life. We need to enhance our beauty using the whole person. Not just parts of us. What makes us,who we really are,is already in us. If we take and show our true selves with all of our repairs, we stay true to ourselves.

Every expiriance we go thru,despite good or bad teaches us. We should not disquise our experiences. Our journey in life,put together make us..well… us. Every feelin and emotion we go thru creates more of who we are. Don’t hide them. Embrace them. Don’t let anyone try and convince you that every part of you,your thinking,and the way you look are wrong. Don’t fix what’s not broken and fix what is and enhance your beauty.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Go look into your mirror and see your beauty💗©

Sometimes we get so busy in life that we end up taking things for granted. We forget that things like words carry such meaning.

We use words everyday,sometimes with not even thinking. It becomes automatic that we don’t think twice about what we say or the affects they have on those who hear them. The fact is when we speak, we don’t listen to our own words. Let me dive into this and explain further.

Recently, I saw a few posts which used words that would be considered to be negative.”I don’t care” was one set the other was ” You’re full of shit because you’ve been fed shit”. Both sets of these carry with them connotations which can make the person hearing them extremely uncomfortable. I saw the post which used ” I don’t care” say that they were freeing to use. No I adimently disagree. These words actually are dismissive ,a dissociation if you will. The words imply that they don’t want to hear anything. In fact the phrase ” I don’t care”, indicates the speaker has no interest or emotional investment in the topic at hand. Now,far be it from me to tell you what words to use. But, I would think that you wouldnt want to be dismissed so easily if you went to someone with something and they said that to you. You’d want them to take interest in what your speaking about. The fact is we’ve become very dismissive of others. Which to me is unfortunate. Being this way is a form of judgement and if said enough,the person may not look to interact with others or even ask for help if they need it because they’ve been dismissed.

The second phrase ” You’re full of shit because you’ve been fed shit” is even worse. Another dismissive phrase but this one contains a connotation with it that everything they say and do is wrong. It’s negative at its core. Most times as before, if a person gets dismissed so often. They will stop connecting with others and it’ll mess with their self esteem. Now, I know from personal experience that if you’re told and treated like garbage for so long,you start feeling like garbage. It litterally affects your self worth.

Now,this second phrase I’ll go into deeper in my next blog because it needs an extra explanation of its original context. So, this is what I’m going to end with. I’m issuing you a challenge. Record yourself saying these phrases and others like .”You might be lazy” or “I hate you”. ” Everything about you is wrong” ” You should be dissapointed in yourself “.Then go listen to it in your mirror. If while listening to it you have even the slightest twinge then imagine what’s it’s like being the other person hearing it.

Be conscious of your words for the power they have is extensive. The affect they have can be a lifetime.Try instead of negative comments using positive thoughts and words.  The affect can be imidiate and long lasting. It’s amazing the difference of what a few  positive words can have. Show concern,compassion and kindness and Love.

A patient went to a dr one day. The dr gave him Love as a prescription. The patient asked dr. What if it doesn’t work? The Dr answered ” increase the dose “. ©

I decided long ago to live my life with Love and light. To not accept hate or anger as a base. I’ve accepted what I’ve gone thru instead of placing blame to those who hurt me. I’ve chosen to concentrate on things which money can not buy. To listen to my heart.

I’ve seen those who try to deny the things in their own heart. To try an pretend that those things which money cant buy doesn’t exist. But I am here to tell you that they do. In fact they are the absolute Truth.

You see when you stare your own mortality in the face, you begin to see what’s important and what’s not. I’m not here to tell you what you should do but, I’d hope that you could see into the deepest parts of your heart reading this to know what I am saying is true.

First, let me explain that you don’t need anyone who claims that they are an accountability coach. In fact if you need one in your life then you should move back home to your parents or better yet join the military. That’s what drill sargents are for. It’s more likely that you require motivation and someone who would help show you that you can think and feel with your authentic heart. ( I actually know one who uses Love as a base to motivate you) I’ve never understood why people would pay for someone to tell them how much is wrong with them. To me that’s so redundant. I know the person who does that hasn’t made peace with themselves, and uses that as an excuse for the hate they feel from whatever they’ve gone thru. I actually feel pity for them because they’ve never allowed themselves to live.

Second, you cannot apply logic to everything in life. Life isn’t just black and white . It’s full of color coming from experiences living life. Sure there are things you can apply logic to, but things that matter you can not. When you apply logic, the deepness of being human dissapears. You see when you look at life thru logic, you tend to shut down your heart. I could never understand how anyone would do that. Logic can apply to buissnes but not the human condition. We have been given things from birth to live and experience the human condition to its fullest. But so many times we are convinced by those who tell us we aren’t worthy or that there is something wrong with the way we are, that we end up losing a huge portion of that journey. What exactly happens to you, when you lose that part of you? You just exist at that point. Just a empty shell of what a human should be. Life is to be lived fully, with expiriances whether good or bad to keep us growing and moving forward.

Third, success is something which gets twisted a lot. If you were to ask any random person what success is. They’d probably tell you a good paying job or a nice home, or even money in the bank. But let me put to you what true success is. It’s living an abundant life. It’s not things you acquire, I e. Money possessions. Thoes things you can not take with you, but if you become successful in living your life as fully as it was intended to live, then to me you’ve reached a level of success that others only dream of. Most would say striving for success and perfectionism goes hand in hand. I don’t think so. Being perfect isn’t something that you’ll be. Oh, you can be good at what you do job wise or be good at being creative. But being perfect within any of these things isn’t something that you’ll be able to get to. Let me explain something to you. I consider myself richer then most. Not with momentary riches, because in that respect I’m poorer then most. But because I’ve put value on things money can not buy. Compassion, kindness,empathy, sympathy, love, and character of self. True, I’d love to wake up not having to worry about bills,having enough food for me or Bonzai, but to me if I can wake up everyday with my heart still beating and being able to take a deep breath. That’s what I call success.

If someone tells you you can change your reality or circumstances by simply changing your mindset. You might be able to for a short time. But there are things you can not change in this world. So do me one favor. Look inside your self before you make a decision that might change you from the being the you,that you were intended to be. Some of us no matter how hard we bust our butts can not change the circumstances that have been laid out for us. That’s the truth of it. Be kind to yourselves and to others. You never know what affect your simple act of kindness will have.

P.s. I did not write this for sympathy or I’m so sorry . You can leave that at the door. I wrote this because it needed to be said from my heart. And to remind you just how connected we all are.